What is that ? Is it really a nightmare ? :O

Hyper ?

2009-09-03T21:17:00.001-07:00

Omg , i must say , its almost a bloody full month since i blog . Like what in the world ?! I know , i had been living in my fantasy world much . I cant even think . There are like so many things that i can say in here . Which probably will be pages for me to write it down . And since im lazy , like always . Im not gonna write it . Im just gonna write to catch up with you peeps . Its gonna be 3 months , with him , ths 090909 . Isnt it great ? The date is super nice and im off the hook , so excited ! I dont know whats gonna happen though . Since its fasting month , cant eat and stuffs like that . I've been hoping that our relationship will get well . Im so missing him every seconds , maan . Ohh since now , all my problems or troubles , mostly are settled . Im gonna clear my mind and enjoy the things and people thats around me until it last . Better now , rather than be miserable later . So yeah , til the moment last , im just going to have fun with all my friends . I miss those crazy moments we had , talking about craps are what we do best , isnt it ? HAHA , sweet memories , miss it badly . Geesh , its 1 already , and school start another hour . Chao peeps , update soon :D

True friends ? Pfft

2009-08-08T23:06:00.000-07:00

True friends ? Is there such thing nowdays ? Which i dont think so , gaah , i feel so clueless and stuck right now . Which one should i believe and which i should not ? Which is best for me , which is worth the risk ? I dont know anymore , things are getting a little out of hand . I mean like a lot . Bestfriends , are all gone . Sometimes , i just get tired and wish to forward the times , to get all over with this . So now , you peeps listen . Im asking S , to get back with you guys . I will be back with my normal friends . And to S too tall and S so inncocent , i dont think this friendship will ever work . So , i want you guys to move on . I will move on , im not gonna regret it . I've think hard enough that i cant stand all this dramas anymore . So yeah , you guys are better off without me anyways . Mmm , have a wonderful life aite . And S , please dont ruin your friendship with them because of me . Just go ahead , i have others . And thanks - for everything that you guys had done . Really appreciate it . Fullstop . Today is Sunday , the 090809 , happy 2nd months Anniversary , love <3 Thanks for being here with me , i love you with all my heart and soul ! And thats a lot of love :D I miss you , like more than i love you now , i think . Haha whatever , gay , i remembered it first ! Love you . Books are clling me , exam another two days , so yeah . Gtg , bye :)

Yeah , thats the exact point

2009-08-01T05:43:00.000-07:00

Gaah , I's phone was taken by my mum , now , i dont have anymore phones and surely , i cant live with that . What am i suppose to do ? Since my phone was taken by mum and I's phone was taken , i got busted . Now , i dont have any phones ! Im missing him every seconds and minutes of the day , i keep thinking about him . Boyy , my mum must be thrill . So , she find out about me and you . I couldnt sleep all night last night , crying like hell . My mum slept next to me cause scared that i will hurt myself , i guess . Well , what does she cares about ? Since she is the point that i become like this . Dang it , and to those two S-es , im tired of you guys insulting me and doing whatever shits you guys are doing . Yeah , you both can be such good bestfriends , i know . You guys would never understand how hurt i am now and what im going through , i just couldnt tell . I was scared . But i have my miracle and the ones i love too , they are the ones that understand me and help me go through all this . I may not have any friends in class . But crap , i dont give a rat ass about it . What i know is that you guys are betrayer and that i could never believe you guys ever again . Im not gonna talk bad or get even to you guys , thats not just how i was taught , but all i know is that im really dissapointed with you guys and that i will never forgive both of you . If you were trying to hurt me that bad , congrats , it works . So now , shooo , just go the hell away and out of my life you go . I hate both of you and thats just the end . Saturday is quite alrght , i went PD in the morning and come home around 3 plus ? And watch A walk to remember , AGAIN ! Like a gazillion times , haha , so what ? That movie is so romantic and sweeeeeeeeeet :) And it reminds me of him . Gaah , im just plain bored . So adios peeps and thanks to those two human being that keeping me alive , one guy and a girl . I love both of you , thanks for everything , for fighting and staying with me through it all <3

You belong with me (:

2009-07-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

Eaaak , it had been more than two weeks since i blog , not being that busy , more to lazy , i guess ? Heh , sorry , its not that people update with me anyways . I had gone through a lot , to many stories i have to catch up . Watch Harry Potter , accompany me anyone ? I want to watch it but i dont know who to go with , dying at home . My phone was taken by mum and i can only use it two hours a day , like what in the shit ? Geesh , i miss him badly and all my friends . No more late night calls , no more texting . What a nightmare that im going through . Anyways , school is just okay . I guess things doesnt work out that well anymore . I may loose in touch with my friends that i was close to . Im concentrating on my studies , to get better results , to catch up with old subjects . Gaaah , vey busy . Now , i have to off , i will try to blog tomorrow ? Since school starts tomorrow , later peeps ! <3

Dooom !

2009-07-03T22:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , was Open Day . I didnt blog last night because i was grounded for not using the computer , phones or television . I was hell scared to be in school , to confront my mum and the teachers . My heart feel like it was about to explode . I promised my mum that i will change , that i reall want to study and all . It soon will happen cause i feel like such a stupid person . In school , i hangout with Sarah , Syafiq , Isaac and all . Since they are so nice to come . Hahaha , thats super duper fun though (: Okay then , my mum came and she was really dissapointed with me . I felt so hurt when she said that . Then went home , eat and do some stuffs . Then Syafiq want me to go to Padang , then went there together . Hangout there and hangout with Mimi and Qash at Brumby's . Sent Mimi home and walk to Suraya's back . And he took his stuff and Arief walk with us and sent him to Petronas . It was not a really bad day though , i kinda love it (: I had fun and spend time with all my beloved people . Haha , okay thats it . I may not be blogging for quite sometime , since i have to concentrate on studies , for my future , you know ? Blrrhh , okay bye !

Oh crap , you bitch

2009-07-01T19:50:00.000-07:00

School are pretty messed up lately . We had been busy for the play of the Phantom , most of the classes are . Yesterday was nearly like a prom , everyone were wearing dresses and tuks and all nice suits to match the play . We were all prepared until these two moron guys from my group didnt come . I was upset and annoyed with their behaviour and foolish attitude . I thought of letting all this practice and all go , to be done and finish . So that , i do not have to think about it anymore . Its cracking my head up , maaan ! Parent's day is tomorrow , im gonna die , thats for sure ! With my results and everything . I may not be blogging or interacting with anyone except in school . It maybe the end of it . Geesh , im trying my best to study hard cause that will be the most important thing in the future , aite ? So yeah , i wouldnt be blogging that much . Since now , i think i havent blog a lot either . Thats just who i am , i must be in the mood to the things . If not , i will be doom ! And you , thanks for loving me that much that your willing to sacrifice a lot with me and still stand with my problems . Thank you so much , i really apreciate it a lot . I love you (: And i miss you a lot since yr phone had taken , i miss you like hell ! Like really :'( Okay , im off to school now . So byee loves (:

Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing

2009-06-27T07:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night was oh-my ! I watched Transformers 2 . The sound effect , the story and everything was totally amazing . Massive respect for whoever created that show . Lebouf and Megan are totally amazing people . I like the part when everytime Lebouf act , panickly . Haha , he never fails to be great . Geesh , i envy them both . Being together and all . Oh my my , khalil and i kept talking abt them the whole time today . Haha , how obsessed are we ? The movie was great , wow . No words can even say , im speechless . I love it lots (:

Tiring , yet i had a blast (:

2009-06-27T06:05:00.000-07:00

Oh maan , i woke up at 7.50 or something like that cause my phone was my vibrating . It was from him , i forgotten that i had ask him to wake me up at 8 . Instead , he woke me up 10 minutes early . Dang , oh well . I cant even sleep after that . So , i just lie down on the bed while listening to songs . I was daydreaming the whole time until my mum shouted at me and say it was 11 . I was super shocked ! I didnt realize the time , maan . I jump off the bed and took my shower super quickly and pack my bad , eat and drink and change to my school uniform and went to school . When i arrived , i hangout with Ben , since he is the only who was there on that time . Minutes later , isaac and syafiq came . I hangout with them the whole day with the others . Since im the only girl , i was kinda scared and thought of going home ? But oh well , i cant . He asked me to stay . So i stayed , i had a blast and didnt regret of not going home . I skipped classes since i was the only one who came at my class . Since Sarah and Shafiqah didnt , i was so angry at them . Went home with S and B and saw arief at petronas . Walked with them , and saw A on the way . They sent me home and after that , i had tuition . Tiring like hell , i was about to sleep , listening to the teacher . So yuppidee doodle , now im blogging . I had fun , hell a lot (; Loves

Ohmaggodd

2009-06-23T07:56:00.002-07:00

It had been ages since i blog , maan . So in the freaking shit , sorryyyyy ! Hey everyone , whatsup ? Im doing great here ! Like totally great , im in love with someone and he is my prince charming . I love him lots . Moving on , things are going rocky these days . With all the friends and people around . They are totally ignoring me ? I dont even know what i do , but what i know is that i have to settle things up . FAAAAST ! Im starting to love how things had been , with him being around , makes a lot of differences inside my life . Isnt that great ? Heh , i knoww (: School had been blurry much , nothing exciting happen anymore . Except for big fights , small fights and a lot more of fights going on . And Parent's Day is getting near . Im going down , for sure . Well , wish me luck , aite ? Really need it ! Haha , as for now , im off to bed ! Adios lovees (;

I had been used

2009-06-13T05:39:00.001-07:00

Okay , so sorry for not updating for so-loooong ! I had been through a lot of troubles lately . Yeah , just so people know , i am magnet to troubles . Dang it . Oh well , slept at Royale Bintang last night and it was such a mesmerizing experience . I surely had a great time until S texted me and say N was using me and ruin the moment . Well nah , its okay S but i surely hate N now . But thanks for telling me babe ! Appreciate it a lot , love (: I bought a lot of things , my budget is lost somewhere and school about to start . I havent even touch my homeworks , folio and scripts for a play . And with that , im gonna DIE ! These past few days , i am not really in the mood to talk or text a lot . I had a lot going in my mind and some of them i had settle it , just a few more though . That is the hard ones . So as i promise , i had blog . I will update again as soon as i can . Thats a promise . Im so sorry to the people i've hurt , i will try my best to change to a better peson . With much loves , bye

Oh damn , reality will not leave me alone

2009-06-08T03:48:00.000-07:00

So yeah , hey ! I had broke up with V yesterday evening which was a relief cause everything is going way way complicated and unsolved , so dump him through call . Shit , maan ! Oh well , im much happy now . I hadnt been blogging lately , been quite busy . Will update with somethings later , promise ! So as now , bye (:

Funny , never took you for a quitter :S

2009-06-05T01:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , went out with them like we planned to but Sarah pick us up late , so like yeah . We went to Pavi by train . Isaac , Ben , Sarah and I around 12 something and went to the hotel where Seo was . Eat lunch there and went straight to Pavi , we were so late ! And then 17 Again was sold out , like hells shit maan ! So , we watch Monster vs Aliens , it was alrght . Dang , today im watching 17 Again though ! I hope so , haha . We walk around and went back and sent Seo to the hotel back agai n. Went home by traing again , hell tired . Hate those bullshit , get a life can ? Guess i have to do it own my own . Went home , text wih S til 3 am , maan . He is sweet and so nice to me , maan . Any girl would be lucky to have him and im super serious ! :D Im tired , today , stayed at home , doing somethings . Btw , to A , i hate you . Please go away ? Feel full of hatred towards you guys , bye !

Sweetie , life is meant to be this way . I have to go :S

2009-06-03T06:12:00.000-07:00

Alrghtt , im missing him each day more and more . Hell noooo ! And to B , i hope is working out for you ! Goodluck , maaan haha :D Okay , tomrrow im going pavi with Seo , Sarah , Isaac and Ben and we are watching out 17 Again since its coming out torrorow . Yeaah , CANT WAAAIT ! Im being mentally crazy right now . I have noo life at all , im doing nothing the wholee day except for onlining , sleeping and eating . Eee . what a retard :S Oh weell , today is quite bored , i had been doodling and writing somethings for some reasons . I know that i can be bitchy sometimes but i cant let the past go , its still inside my head . How F.N had actually ruin my life and everything . It was a mistake for me to know her but it was the biggest mistake for me to actually believe her . Some people agrees with me and i know im rght . I have my pride and dignity , my life belongs to me and my rules are mine . I dont like people judging about me and making rumours about things which is stupid and which i dont do . So to whoever that is . Get a life , can ? Im tireeed . Die , bye (:

Freaky way

2009-05-31T22:15:00.000-07:00

I feel like everything is going back to normal now , not the usual , i guess its getting better ! I had a lot of fun these few days . But then , i had ditch some of my close friends during the past one week to hangout with my other friends . So yeah , after school hols , i need to start to hangout with them back . Incase things go the other way around . So , V had gone to UK two days ago for football thing and believe it or not , im starting to miss him . Hes going for two weeks , hope he calls when he get back though . I guess im starting to like him too , since now we are together . Oh well , school hols just started and its so damn-boring , maan . I wanna go out ! Help ! But i will be busy starting from today until thursday , helping my mum with some stuff . Hectic , i suppose . I will be eating , blogging , sleeping , interacting and thats it -.-' Godd , no life ! Til then , loves

After we broke up , you began to get hotter , is it to make me jealous ? -.-'

2009-05-27T19:21:00.000-07:00

Finallyy , maaan ! Exams over and my life began as normal agaaain . Thank youh , i havent decide if im going to school or not . I had been miserable lately and when im around my friends , i feel so left out . I dont know why , maybe part of me want to be alone and part of them , dont want me to be around . Whichever that is , it has to be stop . I know , being annoying and stupid is some of my weaknesses . People just have to deal with it , dont they ? Everyone make mistakes and nobody were born perfect . And that includes , they have their own weaknesses too . Hell yeah , sometimes i get irritate with my friends too and thats normal . You dont have to brag about it or saying things to people how much you actually hate that person . Well , some kind of friend you are . And for me , things could be better but i just choose the wrong path . To be an outstanding person is not how i role . I wanna be normal and have fun with whatever i have . Either its bad or good , think positive , thas the best solution , isnt it ? Im crapping a lot right now . I wanna dieee , can i ?

Moving on

2009-05-22T11:52:00.000-07:00

Ohmagodd , it had been long since i updated . Oh well , here i am agaaain and guess what ? Its now 3 am and my eyes are still wide open , maan . I cant get myself to sleep . So let me tell you somethings , to whoever bitches who are reading this . You are some bloody moron who dont have any life to fulfill okay ? So thats why you are trying to ruin others . Suitchaself , cause to my exact point , lots of people hate you but you just have no idea of that , dont you . Thats ashamed . Im chatting with Inas and Tsya now <3 They are fun to talk to and pretty nice too (: A and i are oveer and finally , im moving from all the shits and craps and F.N , if you want him , take him la . No ne even cares , zzz . There are lots more people who craving for me , who is better than him . Im just tired of him . So , lets see , exam started few days ago and i was hell not in the mood to take the papers but i was force to , to succeed in life and yada yada yada . Be free to say , im not that good lately with everything going on . I have exam to take , problems to solve and revenge to do . Hell yeah , im doing bad ! Oh Shit , i heard someone's voice . Got to scoot , byeee (:

Its not over , is it ?

2009-05-14T07:43:00.000-07:00

This is so bloody absurd ! Everything is going hell wrong from what i expected . F.N and i fought , she thought it was a big fought but for me , it was just small . I didnt really care about it . It was useless for me to cry for and its not worth it , i tell you . I am so freaking mad . She clls me some useless bitch fuck hell and moree , maan . I cant stand it anymore . I dont give a shit about her . My friends are helping me to move one and i dont need her anyway . Hey , am i that annoying ? Well if i am , im so trying my best to change . Bear with me , could ya ? And i also fought with my beloved J.R too ! Well , he definitely hates me and i can do nothing about that . Oh well , i have to be hell strong and fight and move on ! Yeaah ! Haha , im being ridicilous . Exam is next week and the books are clling me . Bye aite ? (:

Dang , i lost it again

2009-05-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

Okay today is Farah Natasha's Birthday . So , she celebrated it at Pyramid and of course i was invited , if not i wouldnt write it . Haha , it was okay . Before Suraya and i went there , we were finding my purse . I lost it , has anyone seen it ? The last i saw was yesterday . I put it in my plasstic bag with my school uniform . Haih , whoever take it , you are fucking mean , you know that . There are lots of private stuff in there ! :'( Anyways , thats why we went late for Natasha's party . So , the outing was alrght . I wasnt in the mood because for some reasons which im not in the mood to tell to . Tomrrow is Sports Day and i dont want to come but i have to . Friends are forcing me to go . So yeah (: Now , things are going not according to what i expect . Lots of people are going through rough things and that inludes me . Stop the fights , please ? Im out , im going to eat !

Its a wrong direction , my love

2009-05-05T20:35:00.000-07:00

Okay okay , i had been ignoring my blog this past few days . Days past just like that . And whats with everything going so fast ? Its quite hectic . This Sunday , we have Sports Day and it is rather late . Other schools had done it long time ago . Exam is around the corner and i havent even touch a single book . Everytime i tried , i will be bored of it . Haha , the books are clling me , that im sure of -.-' Gosh , being the cssc is such a rush thing to handle . We must cll all the people to go down and take pictures . Need to line them and all , it looks like fun , you know . But well , its exhausting ! I didnt get much rest these days .I sleep around 3 or 4 something and will be awake around 9 or so . Thats how my life is nowdays . I have been busy with everything . That reminds me , i havent do my history folio , and crap ! The script for an english play . Im doom ! Seriously , cant time go any slower ? And school is kinda dull which is because i had been quite depress lately for some personal reasons . Geeesh , is it that hard for someone to actually cares about someone else ? Not that hard , right ? Im just talking to myself right now , being mad at myself for falling for two people who dont even care about me and that is so bloody absurd . Well , cant blame him . I still love him <3
Haha . Shit , i need to get ready for school ! Update later , my friends . Bye ! (;

Im tired and freezing cold

2009-05-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

Its 3 days of holidays , if you know we get the Friday offed for Labour Day . Anyway , my family and i went back to Penang to see the newborn babyy and she is cute , i tell you . Whats with babies that makes them look cuter thn ever ? Is it because their innocent faces ? Haha , i love them (: On the Friday , we arrived at Penang around 3 something and it was fucking tiring . But then , as soon as we arrived we straight away went to Queensbay and just so you know , thats the only mall thats near our cousin's house . We walk for hours there , like 6 hours ? Its tiring and i texted him to make me less bored . I had been texting him a lot lately and im so into him . Haha , is that too straight forward ? Maybe yes , but well he doesnt know which is a good thing . Im not that desperate and i finally move on . A is out of my side , thanks to him (: On that Saturday , we went to Gurney Plaza which is a mall too , it was freezing cold inside the mall . I sit down most of the time cause i wasnt in the mood to shop . I already bought lots of things before that and im tired . We went back yesterday around 2 in the morning , after the heavy rain stops . Then arrived around 5 something because the road was smooth . It was a good thing though , i can break my neck if i sleep in the car much longer , pfft . Im tired , im out <3

Im so stressing out for nothing

2009-04-27T07:14:00.000-07:00

I hate when you clling me desperate , i hate when you think i have no one , i hate when you ask me to go and mostly i hate that you dont even care , A . I have a life and if you dnt believe that , the least you could do is respect that . My friends love and care about me , i believe thats true . I have my own dignity , i respect that you have a girlfriend so i move on . Whats the point of me liking you anyway , rght ? I dont need you and i can live without you . At least you have to believe that . Today was quite alrght . We had a new principal , i forgotten whats her name was . She looks alrght , not that scary i could say . Haha , studies were normal and i am supertired . Off now , lovees (:

Im regretting the desicions i have made , zz

2009-04-25T02:54:00.000-07:00

I woke up really early in the morning , around 8 or so . Maybe nt that early but its early for me haha . I have to go to the hospital cause this past few weeks i have been having headaches really bad , like almost every single day . I was getting worried myself , so i beg my mum to check . Arrive at SJMC around 8.30 something and wait there for a while to see the doctor . He said maybe because i am tension or stress , i was laughing . Yeah , thats right , im stressing lately because of A , he makes me -.-' and also with some other problems that i keep to myself rther then telling people about it . That was stupid of me , blergh . Anywaays , need to go to the other building to scan my brain , which is an emergency room . I got panic like hell , haha . Then lay on the bed there for like half an hour because they need to scan again and again because i keep moving . I thought of something happen to me . I was definitely scared in there . Find out that i was okay , thats goood news for my friends , but naah , not really for me :S Then , went home , i was tired and went to sleep . Then watch some movies and now just blogging . Im superbored and i have nothing to do . Thats kinda suck , im not going anywhere today -.-' Okay , im out . Tuition another 15 minutes , zz bye

Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs .

2009-04-23T20:25:00.000-07:00

I couldnt have imagine how my life would be without him . So , i waited for him to come back and he did . I've tried my best to be with him and impress him . I keep wondering if he ever feels the same way towards me . I wanted to ask but i dont want to be so absurd . And now , i know that he does but he has feelings for another person . I was heartbroken . Was i too late ? I feel so weak and speechless . He left me all alone without saying any goodbye just like as if i never existed . Where is that good in saying good-byes ? That , im not sure myself . I dont want him to leave me again . I dnt know how to say it , i couldnt speak . But now , i know its too late . He is gone , out of my side . I dnt know what to do and how could i survive . Though , i never regret for knowing him , he was the sweetest person i could ever know and love . There surely be some reasons for him to just go like that . I have to try to move on , and it will be hard . I know that but im sure that i can forget him . Someday , i know i will . Even if i cant , i just have to , dont i ? |:

2009-04-23T20:17:00.000-07:00

So , today is the 24th of April and it is someone's birthday (: It is Inas's birthday ! My loving and caring bestfriend ! Happy birthdaaaay babe ! :D You had been such a great friend to me and thanks for everything and for being here when i needed you . You cheer me up when im down and listen to my problems . You are the bomb ! Haha , i love you lots <3 I must say that i never regret knowing you . What else could i say ? You are just great . Take care and have fun . I will see you in school later , haha . Lovees

I know what you had done , it wont change how i feel

2009-04-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm , today was not that okay . My phone was taken by one of the stupid prefects . Thats lame , i know . So , i dont have any phone now . I can just check my texts and clls at night . Sorry about that . Haha , other than that , it was just fine . I had a great time today , consider thats a good thing , haha . Studies was just normal , i dont even know what to talk about . And oh , to all my friends who have been helping me to move on . Thank you so much <3 Okay , night all (:

Heart broken

2009-04-18T13:25:00.000-07:00

When I first saw you
I thought you were too good to be true
The innocent look in your eyes
Made me realize I loved you
For days I acted perfect to see if you liked me too
You started flirting and I thought
It must be too good to be true
And it was
Who ever thought some one like you could hurt me so bad
I saw you flirting with other girls
I didn't know what to do
I loved you
We became friends and I was so happy
But one day you told me you are annoyed with me
That very moment my heart shattered
I wanted to cry
But not in front of you
So I ran away from you
And that day I cried a million tears
I hope you are happy now
I don't care about anything or anyone now
All because of those words
Well now its your turn to hurt
Your turn to cry
Your turn to live your life just wishing you would die
I hope these words make your life totally blue
'I hate you'

Heyaaww !

2009-04-18T12:59:00.001-07:00

Its Saturday ! Oh wait , its Sunday and its already four in the morning . Im wide awake and bloody bored . I dnt know what to do so here i am , blogging . I havent update for a while . So , today had nothing much , really . I had tuition at 6.30 til 7.30 . It was one hour haha . Then , Anis and Mimi came to my house and we went to Suraya's house . Effy , Puteri and Arief's friends were there . Not many people showed up but it was okay . I wasnt really in the mood cause i was upset with A , the whole day . Went back home around 10.30 , didnt do anything much . Eating , talking and taking pictures a lot .That was it . Continue on , at home , watching some movies , chatting with Inas . Hmm , pity you , babe . You need to tell them and do something about it . I really wish i could help out but i dont seem to say anything right . But if you need someone to talk to or not talk to , im here always (: I just want you to know that , alrght ? And thanks for listening to my problems . You are a great person and you need to know that . Haish , my life is getting suck-ish . Im not really in the mood but i just want to update something . Alrght , hmm , night then . Or should i say morning ?

Xoxo , Syamim

You are a disaster to me and everyone else !

2009-04-14T07:38:00.001-07:00

Okay , what the heck is your problem ? Seriously , everybody hates you . Get that ? So , what , im not perfect , im bloody weak and annoying . But just so you know , i have much much more friends than you do . Im much more nicer too . Shafiqah is not here with me for two days already . When is she coming back ? I miss her ! -.-' And im starting to regret what i had done to you , M . So , im sorry . Thats all i want to say . But if you dnt want to forgive me , thats alrght . Im fine with it . Its pain but im going to be alrght . And to this biatch , please get a life . We all hate you . Stop pretending to be nice at us cause we dont even care . Oh well , you just self-centered . Today was really suck-ish . Did nothing much but kinda busy though with hw going on and problems to settle . Okay , im talking to someone rght now and shes calming me down . Thanks (: Umm , bye <3

I just dont get it

2009-04-10T23:27:00.000-07:00

I couldnt hate you but how could you ? Im not certain whats happening . This morning , my maid left . She is going back to Indonesia , her home . She had been here for 11 years , since i was a kid . So , she was like my second mother . I miss her already , i hope she is happy (: Okay , this is my second post . I am so fed up with school and those backstabber friends . They are so bloody irritating and annoying . Geesh , im not going to start how they ruin my life . Im going to move on , though . That what im going to do (: I dnt give a shit about it cause now , my friends are right . All you do is hurting people and always think about yourself . Haha , self-centered human being . You are so absurd . Im happy with my life with all my crazy friends that i love . Oh , i wanna eat . Im hugry , out (:

Was it meant to be ?

2009-04-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

Today was tremendously fuuuun ! Haha , yeah it was (: I went tuition in the morning . Teacher Asma took me because my mum was late , really really lateee ! Suraya follow her to take me . When we arrive everyone was there . Ammar was the new student in there . So yeah , whatever , he came much much more late then i did . Anywaays , after tuition , went to Taipan and bought some things . Then , went to school aroud 12.30 plus . Studies were normal . I absolutely many of the teachers in that school and also some of the students in it . Two girls , who i actually think that are my bestfriends and who i can trust . Buut , i cant . Really really cant cause they do not care at all . They are some stuckup bitch , i totally hate . Continue on , before recess , we had motivation abt some things . Then recess was okay , i have no money at all ! Geesh , then agama was boring . Had PJ after that , haha they were playing with the skipping rope . Hilarious maan (; Oh , and Suraya , Anis and i went back home walking , agaain . Haha now im just chatting with Anis sayang , Hilman , Khalil , Ika and others . Thatnks for cheering me up guys . Im bored , anyway . Heh , thats all . Loveees <3

Meaningless

2009-04-04T22:57:00.000-07:00

As I walk through life
I look at all I have done
I had wandered aimlessly
And wondered what I have become

I have been through so much
It is amazing I made it through
The lessons I have learned
I am shocked I pulled through

The times I wondered
What life was all about
The trials experienced in life
Can make all the good come out

We try to make it day by day
Remembering what we were taught
Just remember some time to pray
It is important
We need it every day

Life can be short
Unexpected at that
We try to take its punches
Just hoping it won't break our back

Remember who you are
Who you want to become
Everything will fall into place
When the time comes

It had been crazy do :S

2009-04-04T21:40:00.000-07:00

Things are getting a little out of control , its changing from time to time . It had been crazy , indeed ! I dont like seeing you guys fighting , so please stop . You both are my bestfriends and dont take that away from me . Try to be nice to each other , okaaay ? Please , for me :( High school are getting suck-ish , if only you know that . Control yourself , life aint a drama , alrghtt ? Haish , what am i going to do with you ? Im just fed up of your lies and you , ruining other people's life . So , yesterday morning , Suraya's mum took us to BB Plaza , it was full with people . We went to Sheraton first , while waiting for her mum to work . We read magazines , played with Amanda and took some pictures too . After that , went to her aunty's bridal shop and eat somewhere around there . Oh then then , went to one of her mum's friend's condo and maaan , she was rich . We eat there and went back around 11 . Hangout with her sister at home and talk talk talk . Sleep at 3 and today , my mum force me to go back at 11.30 plus . Geesh , damn early ! No reasons at all , im so fed up with it . Now , im just blogging , myspacing and onlining but not many people is doing that . So , im off-ing . Chaooo <3

Aint life just a joke ?

2009-04-02T07:49:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps . Everything seems to be okay now . And i hate someone so much right now who i think that is my bestfriend but she pretend to be my bestfriend too . Well , she is not anymore . Liars , im just fed up of them . You can go on , biatch cause i dont need you anymore . I do pick my friends but im not that choosy . I love my friends , all of them . Im not popular and i dont think my friends are , either . Even if they are , i dont care about it . I dont friend with them because of popularity , get that ? My friends are my life and im happy with them . So fuck off , i dnt need you , anymore ! I have nothing to update about . School was fine , just normal things . Its getting bored , anyway . Im out , loveees (:

It was fucking awesomeeeeeee !

2009-04-01T07:33:00.000-07:00

Heyawww ! Today is like so fucking awesomeee ! It was Suraya's and Arief's birthday . Also , it is April fool too . People keep saying that and prank me all the time but i fall for all of them . All of them , you know . Geesh , they were doing the serious face . So , i believe it . What a moron i am . Anywaays , went to school and celebrate their birthday at canteen . I brought 3 slices of brownies and Suraya , Arief , Anis , N.Natasha , Effy , Shafiqah , Riyadh and all of our friends were there . And N.Natasha bought magic candles but the twins dont know abt it . They blow and blow the candles but then it relight again . It was hilarious 1 Sorry about that (; Hahaha , then we went to Foyer C and lined up . Before recess , there was another party . Our practical teacher , Cik Norita is going off :'( Geesh , not fair . She was really really fun and nice ! There were two cakes , some food and drinks . There were performances by Zharif , Akmal , Hilman and Megat . That was okaay and then we continue partying . Recess was alrght , just normal . After recess was Agama and Pj , hangout with Suraya , Effy and N.Natasha agaain . Well , i will never get tired of them , they cracks me up ! :D It was incredible ! Thn , we went home , walking . All of us , even Anis . It was their birhtday . Heee (; Aunty must be mad. Oh well , it is exciting and all , i had blast . Im sure they did too . I lovee you , twins ! Happy Birthday , agaain . Hope you guys enjoy that party we had <3 Okay , i guess that just it . I want to eat .

Xoxo , Syamim

I dont give a shit

2009-03-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps , im back again . Many human being that care did off the light . It was dark . Absofucking dark , haha ;) Today , anis , farah and i went to sunway . Effy did too but she only watch movie with us and hangout with us just a while . Pfft , saw some people there . I mean a lot ! Haha , many teens were there . I was so like urghh , too lazy to see all them . Fucking bitches , im tired of . Anyway , i am so fucking tired of the people who never hear from the side of my stories but just keep blaming me . I never get many things that i want , my life is not perfect . Never been and never will . Get a life do ! Continue on , we watch movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic" , haha , hilarious . Then we ate at Asian Avenue and walk around . I had fun with you babes <3 I miss you more then you do . I know that but please come back . Im not in the mood . I will write when i have free time or when im much much more happier . And Suraya wasnt there either . Pity you , babe . Dnt worry , we can study together . Im always here . To whoever hates me , just go away . I dont give a shit . And to this so called cool guys , you aint cool , just some nerd i know that hate me so much . Congrats , you win , Out , loves (:

Xoxo , Syamim

Off-ing

2009-03-28T05:19:00.000-07:00

Im gonna blog later on cause im swithing off everything now
Another few minutes
Save the earth and the environment (:

Xoxo , Syamim

Am i suppose to be upset ? I mean , should i ?

2009-03-27T05:47:00.000-07:00

Hey , what happen to everything that happen for a reason ? But now , there are no reasons anymore , eh ? Okay , im sorry for everything and for not updating this couple of days , i was busy studying for exam . I get some of my result already and all are freaking horrible . Eventhough i study like hell , it was like it wasnt worth it . I feel speechless now . Hmm , school was okay . Today , F.Natasha and N.Natasha didnt come . So , there were Suraya , Effy and I and we had fun . After recess , Effy went back to her class but Suraya , Shafiqah , Intan and I , we didnt . We hangout somewhere else . I freaking thought we were getting caught . Actually teacher was shouting to someone else. We run like we had seen a ghost ! :O
Haha , weird , eh ? Its true , aint lying . And you know what , my life is fucking awesome now ! Not that awesome lah , just exaggerating . Just the normal dull days but i have fun now . More fun then ever . Im out , lovees <3

Xoxo , Syamim

Life wasnt meant to be easy

2009-03-22T00:55:00.000-07:00

I was so absurd to think that i will get them back but i guess i was wrong . And to think that they will actually change for me , that will be some miracle for me . I guess they are not , absolutely not . Oh but life must continue and havent you heard that life is just a joke ? Yeah , i know that i had been self-centered and mean . So , if you could accept my apology for the things i have said and done , i would surely appreciate it . But if you dont , then it was only a vain hope . Sorry for everything eventhough i know that i would never be forgiven . I am happy with my
life right now cause even if you are not around , i still have my awesome friends who is rocking my world . So , thank you , friends , who had been here for me always . Im moving on ! And m , sorry for not being your miracle . I dont regret knowing you . Thanks for everything and for believing in me . Lovees , everyone <3

It is over

2009-03-22T00:48:00.000-07:00

I will be away this past few days because school is having exam . So , i have to get ready lstarting now and by that , i am going to study and sleep with a book in my hand . Haha , thats kinda normal , not just to me but to everyone else too . Yeserday , i watched Race to Witch Mountain and Dwayne Johnson was in it . It was fucking hilarious , maan ! Haha , with the girl reading her mind and the aliens . Anywaay , my life is normal now . I had a lot of fun this holiday eventhough i didnt go for any holiday . I need to study more but i had been playing around . Pfft , i will update whenever im free . School holidays are over and school starts back tomorrow , hmm . Chao

Hmm

2009-03-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

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I told you i will put some pictures . Just wait (:

19 03 2009 <3

2009-03-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

It was the best day of my life , the best , i tell you . Heh , its my birthday today and Suraya came to my house yesterday for sleepover . Well , too bad for them . We had hell of fun ! :D Thanks for coming , you are such a true friend , suraya ! By we , i mean Suraya and i . We talk and talk , and around 11.30 we went downstairs to watch movie . Then , around 12 , my uncle switch off the light , i was like wth , whats going on . They came out from the kitchen and sing me Happy Birthday song . Woo , thanks <3 It was a supsrise and i was definitely shocked ! And it was Baskin Robbin , i get more excited :D We ate and take pictures and then stop the movie we are watching and watch wild child cause that movie was oh-so-boring . Go upstairs at 2 a.m and heh , we slept at 5.30 last night or should i say morning ? Haha , we talk , listen to songs , play games , colour each other nails and all . It was great ! We woke up at 9 am , yeah it was early . Around 10.30 , Puteri , Intan , N.Natasha and F.Natasha came to my house . Then , my mum send us to Sunway Pyramid . There , we wait for Shafiqah . And also Iman and Tsya just for a while , though . They were waiting for Inas . They were going somewhere else . Continuee , we went ant take pictures , watch Marley&Me and believe it or not , i cried . Haha , real tears :'( Pity the dog , it died . Okay okay , after that , we went home . They spend some time with me and went to their home . Suraya and F.Natasha stayed until 7 or 8 . I will upload some pictures , aite ? Hee , thank you guys for coming . I love you all ! <3 It was amazing , really was (: Thank you so much ! Lovees

What is your next lie ?

2009-03-17T00:02:00.000-07:00

Its all about you . Dont you ever forget . You're the reason for my hurt , you are the reason for all the lies . There are only three words , eight letter that i would say is that I hate you . Im not mean and you are a liar and that will be forever .

Deep breaths and pain inside,
Hard to tell the truth when there's so many lies !
Whispers of secrets in my ear
Hoping that someone could hear
And I'm crying actual tears
I feel hurt , pressured and strained
Everybody cant feel my type of pain
And this might really sound lame
But life aint nothing but a game
Do you feel what I feel , NO !
I wish I could let it all go
But it really aint that easy
Have you ever had to sit in the cold freezing
Wanting to be awaken by a special healing
Just let pain go freely
Too bad nothing in this world is free
And to love and care about friends is not easy

Xoxo , Syamim

Okay okay , im done with it

2009-03-16T06:04:00.000-07:00

It is 9 p.m and i had been onlining from 5 something . Yeah yeah , i was so boreeed nowdays . Thats because it is school holidays , pfft . Oh well , at 1.30 something , there was choir in school . I went there with Suraya , my mum send us there . It was only for one hour , screw them -.-' Then intan , puteri , suraya and i went to Brumby's , i was hungry like hell ! And we seperated at the junction there and Suraya followed me back home cause she was so nice of helping for my upcoming sleepover this wedensday for my birthday on thursday . Haha , we spend hours talking and being crazy . Oh man , i so cant live without her . Haha , she is half of me ? (: After hours of hangout-ing together and talking about what games to play and all . So , we found some games . It will be fun and tremendously hilarious , haha , poor you guys . I am no longer fighting with people now , that is good , right ? Oh , to me it is . I need to eat , hungry as usual . Mmm , til then <3

How i said it and when i said it , i know i mean it .

2009-03-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a boring day . Like hell a lot -.-' I wake up at 7 something because i had tuition . It suppose to start at 8.30 but we arrived there around 9 cause Suraya had to take Effy and some problems . Anyway , teacher made the tuition finished late . Not that late lah . After that , i was onlining but uh , i forgot to blog . Sorry |: Okay , continue , Suraya came to my house to finish her hw here cause i force her to . HAHAH , but i was showing her some people's profiles . And lastly , she doesnt manage to finish her work . She finished it in school , instead . So , when we went to school , aunty took us . In school , not even half of my class came . I wanted to go back too but my mum force me to stay . N.Natasha and Effy went back when recess time . So , left the two of us , me and Suraya . We were rockin' over the top ! Haha , after recess we had to sit at one hall , and listen to Maulidur Rasul thing . Okay , after that , we went homee . I was so bored and i was doodling and all . And , officially , M and R is not my friends anymore . So yeah , kinda sad in the first place but things will change . I will get over them , soon enough . That , im sure of . I hope . Loveees

Xoxo , Syamim

Your words brought me to tears .

2009-03-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

How could you hurt me,
The way that you did,
I'm here for you always,
Is what you had said?
Now that you've lied,
Our friendship is dead,
It is now gone,
Left in the past,
Ours was a friendship,
I thought would last,
Why did you lie?
Why'd you pretend?
To actually care,
To be my good friend,
It pains me to know,
It's come to an end,
Somehow I guess it just wasn't right,
Our friendship's now cold,
And dark as the night,
I've come to the fact,

YOU'RE WORTH THE FIGHT ! HOW CAN I DENY THAT ? :'(

Update later , chao <3

Xoxo , Syamim

Dum di dum di dum dum dum di dum

2009-03-12T07:39:00.000-07:00

It had been ages since i blog , so i decided to blog now. Its not ages , but few days lah , im so busy busy busy . Heh , sorry peeps . As for today , it was normal . Many people didnt come to school this past few days cause in the morning , they have olahraga and finish late . So , it was kinda boring . But lucky for me , my friends are not in the olahraga . Except anis and all . Hmm , come to school ! I miss you guys ! And oh , i have decided to ignore R , until he decided to be friend with me back . I dont give a shit either he does or not . That up to you , okaay ? Im freaking serious that i dont care . Haha , nak jual mahal pulak . Takde kerja . I want a happy life with happy friends . So , i spend my whole time with my friends in school and never waste any minute of it . oKay , tomorrow then . Bye (:

Im not some miss perfect stuckup bitch .

2009-03-05T06:05:00.000-08:00

Hey , peeps . Sorry for not updating for so long . Actually , its only for few days . Heh , i was really really busy . Anyway , school was fine and boring at the same time . Im tired of stupid rumours made by stupid people . Dont you guys have your own life rather then ruining others ? But hey , no one cares , man . Its just so annoying . Anyway , im joining choir , now and im getting busier each day with all the homeworks , tuition , teaching and im having big headache ! Geesh , i know , im eating all the medicines that i should but it aint working . Oh well , so , as i was saying , school is okay , i actually dont trust people easily . I fall easily nowdays and bleed like hell . Okay , till then . Bye (:

Its freakingly tempting drools

2009-03-01T18:29:00.000-08:00

So , this tempting thing , is this so-call Daim cake . Omg , i bought the thing for like rm25 , yesterday at Ikea . Well , thats the only reason i go there and damn , i tell you , its worth it and you have no idea how freakingly delicious it is ! Yummy yummy yummy :P As for today , i woke up at 8 in the morning . Its the first time , i went to tution , Eaaak , haha . Lamee , i know but im so excited . Rarely hear people say that , eh ? Suraya , Arif and Effy were there . So again , i have a lot of things going on and so little time . And i have been hangout-ing with them like a a lot , lately . I mean , ths year cause of they are my classmates neighbours and stuff . So , i beginning to get close with them and they are a lot of fun ! Time flies fast , so we need to talk fast , blog fast , text fast and live happily (: So , as i speak that , all the fight had i settled it and ended . Credit to my fellow friends , who helped me to go through it . I owe you guys big time , peeps ! Thanks (: I dont care what people say abt me and abt this gossiping and stupid rumours they are making . Do whatever you want , who cares ! Seriously , you guys dont have a freaking life or just jealous of me . And now , i dont think i hate anyone cause thats just a waste of time . Too little too late , kiddo . I have a life ahead of me and i have grown up (; So , im out to school . Update later , then .

Xoxo , Syamim

Even the worst enemis could be friends back , why cant we be ? -.-'

2009-03-01T00:28:00.000-08:00

When we were friends , either we are close or not , we keep saying all the nicest things about each other . Praising , indeed . But if we have a fight , all we can talk about is bad things about each other . How much their sucks , their hatred over us , the bad things , their not hot and stuff like that . Why must we hate them ? Its only a fight and we like thrm before but how can we hate them now and easily ? Thats all lies ! We cant hate people in seconds . Oh well , i know i dont but whoever does hate me now , think abt it . How could you be so heartless ? I didnt do anything wrong , right ? And M , because of you , now people dont trust me anymore ! And why the hell , did you tell R everything ? He is the one whos blurting yr secrets , not me ! Omg , im gonna kill you , R . Geesh ! Im sorry , M but im so pissed off at you for doing that but it doesnt mean that i hate you , though . Anyway , today was fine . I went to Ikea early in the morning and went to Ikano and spent almost rm100 there , wasted money for nothing . Okay then went home and now blogging cause im so bored to hell ! Grr , im out !

Indeed it happen just like what i expected

2009-02-27T23:42:00.000-08:00

Today was way way way more complicated then it should be . I woke up at eight and get ready and go to primary school to get the certificate and also money , rm50 for Anugerah Cemerlang . I was totally happy and it is for whoever gets 5a's in UPSR . They should have give us last year but they didnt . So , they gave it this year , instead . Oh well , meet some old friends , Aniz and all . Its started at 10 something . And we were hungry before that , so me , qeelah , hidayah , uzair , razzi and arif went to brumby's . I just bought a drink . Then , went back there . It was time to line up , so we did . Then get the certificate and dnt forget the money. Haha (; Then again , me , qeelah , razzi , hilman , zharif and arif went to brumby's and eat again . Saw kira , anis , farah and all . Say hey hey and stuff . Then after eating , me and qeelah went back first . I send her home , but thn i was scared to go alone . I was waiting there to wait for somebody to come . Then , saw zharif ! Yay , my life saver . Haha -.- Okay , we walk walk walk and talk talk talk . He send me home , thn he have to turn back cause his house is the other way . Pity pity you , but he was so nice , rght ? Okay , jgn perasan . Haha , thn had a fight with my freaking sister just because of a stupid remote and also had terrible fight with m , she claims to me that she hates me . Im happy that she tell me sooner but i wish she hadnt feel that way at all . Im gonna miss her badly cause she is my bestfriend , you know . Maybe i am like them . What i am going to do ? Im so not some wannabe bitch . Even my family is falling apart . Hmm , im totally upset . I was crying ever since yesterday night when she told me that she hates me and all . Everytime somebody ask me abt her or anything reminds me of her . Tears roll down my cheeck . Im dissapoint with myself . Sorry for not having your miracle , M . Im sure you already replace me with someone else . Im out :(

Xoxo , Syamim

Dont expect me to follow you cause that will never happen !

2009-02-25T06:02:00.000-08:00

It is as if im just a toy that you can play with when you are bored and throw me when you buy a new one or get bored with . Yeah , that is exactly how i feel . I shouldnt have told you everything and believe that you are even my friend in the first place . As if im just a joke to you , but im not who you think i am . I believe in myself and im happy with the way my life is now and always . Today , school was fine . Its fun , indeed (: Before i went to school , i ate strawberry dip in chocolate . Yummy , its tempting ! Okay , continue , haha . So , went to school , transport with Anis and Suraya . Everytime when i see their face , i feel like smiling , like all the time . Hee , sayang you guys ! Okay , thn everything is just the same . After recess , we have agama with 2a's and 2c's . Thn pj , i didnt change my Pj clothes , so did Tsya . We hangout for a while and wait for Suraya , N.Natasha and Effy while they were playing badmnton with the teachers . Haha , thn they came around and we hangout with few other guys . Okay , thn bell rang , we went home . As i rush and get ready to go to tuition centre . After that which is now , im crapping in here . So yeah , thats it . Bye biatch . I seriously hate you ! Lovees all .

Xoxo , Syamim

The truth came out

2009-02-24T06:30:00.000-08:00

I've got tired of avoiding my friends so i decided to tell them everything , about the truth . Im sick of lies and im fed up of it . Now , i feel much better but nothing seems right . I wish i can stop the time and go back to the past . My life is technically over , so yeah . Everyone is different or changing , maybe i am . I dont know , this is crappy . Yada yada yada , im out .

Xoxo , Syamim

Baby , happy birthday (: 21 02 2009

2009-02-21T04:49:00.000-08:00

So , today i woke up really early , like 8 something to say goodbye to my grandma . Its early for Saturday . Well , she is going back to Perlis . Then , around 1 plus , anis took me and marini to go to Sunway . Marini already waited infront of her house . I never been to her house before but it looks so damn big ! Grr , haha . Okay continue , we straight away went to McD , after ariving there . We were hungray so we ate ate ate and then , Farah Amani , Reez , Aurel and Kira came . Okay then hangout hangout , take pictures , being horny and crazy . Its a lot to write about but im so tired . I went back around 7 something , same does kira . And others , went home around 8 something , i guess . It was an anazming day and happy birthdaaay , anis ! I love you , thanks - for being my friend and for everything . You are an amazing friend and im so lucky to have you !

Let it be

2009-02-20T04:49:00.001-08:00

I feel so alone and crappy today . It was nothing like normal . It was abnormal . My life feel weird , embarassing and full of sadness this days . I dont even know why . So , abt F.Natasha , Suraya and i , we are alright , i guess . School was fine and choir is done for me . I dont even have the mood to blog , i just want to update and i feel so bored today . Its Friday , its suppose to be full of excitement ! Geeesh , im out . Bye

Let me learn to make my own mistakes

2009-02-19T06:53:00.000-08:00

Today was normal . School was fine and tiring . In the morning , we went to Syahbandar's practise then went to Brumby's as usual . Then , school was okay . FN avoid and ignore us as usual . Suraya and I dont evek knw why . Geeesh , she is not making any sense , i am so mad at her now . N.Natasha was okay , Effy too . They were fine . So , i hate my Science's teacher . She cant even speak English , then she want to teach Science . What an emberassment -.-' Haha , thn i went to teach at tuition centre . Haha , i teach , weird huh ? But its cool . Im bored of doing anything . And mar , sayang , your mum will be fine (: Anis , cool down , okay ? I love you juniors ! And i love everyone . Bye !

Xoxo , Syamim <3

They cracks me up , hahahah :)

2009-02-18T06:07:00.000-08:00

Today was amazingly fun . Im suprised actually , haha . So , i woke upi at 9.30 something , i was tired . I texted with my bestfriend , Marini . And then , skip skip skip and when to school . Haha , everyone go balasted today . So , i hangout dgn Aqeelah and Anisah for a while , talk abt somethings . Thn Suraya , Mimi and I saw Jacob Black , upstairs . Omg , he is super duper cute and he looks like Jacob ! Haha , i was laughing like hell abt it . Okay , only we understand that . Then , go canteen as usual and by some drinks . Saw anis , and hug her . Haha , evethough we are in the same transport . That was hilarious . Then okay , recess was nothing . After recess , there were agama and pj . At agama , iman was cracking us up with her silly faces . Inas and Tsya were laughing like hell . Thn , Suraya , Intan and Sarah were making craps and stupid jokes . Went Pj , go downstairs , and i fall down the stairs . Haha , abt two or three steps ! Dang , it hurts ! Hahahah , then went Pj , we were passing the ball , haha , have nothing to do . So , went home . Marini text abt something . She is okay now . Right , babe ? Haha , okay thats all . Believe me , they are loosing their minds . Hahahahaha . Okay , thats all for today , bye <3

Xoxo , Syamim

Crap a lot make me feel lot better :)

2009-02-17T07:08:00.000-08:00

As today , first time agama dgn Suraya Hani and N.Natasha , hee , i skip a lot of things from the morning .Is just normal things that i do . Actually , its first time that i ever have class with them . So yeah , and to the stupid creepy people who are hacking my blog . Have a life ! Thanks Marini , for cheering me up . You are the bomb , the cherry on my ice cream . Hee (: And qeelah , im here for you all the time if you need me , aite ? So , today i crap a lot withe my friends . It was fun and it cheer me up . Sorry , im not in the mood to blog . So yeah , update later . Bye !

Xoxo , Syamim <3

Fourian -.-'

2009-02-13T22:46:00.000-08:00

As i speak about my school , smk usj 4 . We had a Fourian today , which is road run . Gladly , i didnt join the freaking thing cause i have an excuse that i have asthma . So , i woke up early in them morning , and had a really big headache . Pfft , its crushing . Then then , i went to school and saw Effy gila and F.Natasha (: We wanted to wait for Suraya but then teacher was yelling and ask us to wait at Foyer C . Stupid -.-' So , we went toilet , haha then straight to tapak perhimpunan . There , i saw anis , mimi , suraya and all . Hee :D I thought if i didnt run , i would have fun . But the teachers , torture us instead . Screw them all ! They treat us like we are their servant . Not all teahcers , but yeah some of them . ' Syamim , naik atas and take this ' , ' Syamim , turun bawah jap . Mintak cikgu , bla bla bla ' Urghh , sorry , but yeah im not in the mood . Then , after that went to the field and waited for my friend a finish line . Pity anis , she didnt get . But there will be next year , sayang . So dont cry :S I wont be happy like that . That stupid teachers , pilih kasih ! Im on your side , anis (: Always will ! After finish the oh-so-boring speeches . Me , suraya , mimi , mai and qash went to Brumby's again . We eat there . Thn a while , we saw N.Natasha , Anis , Farah , Anisa and Illy . Haha , we should go together . But naah , no thanks . Okay , i dont want to talk abt it . Thn , went to Mimi's house . Hang around there , being crazy as usual we are . Went home , and now doing ths bloggy . Until then , byebye peeps (:

Xoxo , Syamim

A day with my amazing bestfriends ;)

2009-02-12T18:55:00.000-08:00

So , lets talk about my bestfriends . They are super incredible gorgeous crazy people that i love ! Anis and Marini were taking me at 7.30 for Syahbandar practise . I woke up at 7 and crap , i was late . Really really late ! I rush down and up cause i forgot to take a lot of things . That make me more late . Shit , then i eat and eat like a .. I dnt know , haha . Oh well , then they come to my house exactly at 7.30 and check the new kitten that my elder sis took from some place . Go on , took illy from her house . Walk walk . Arrive , and they went to olah raga . So , left me all alone with them there -.-' But , i didnt run cause i have asthma . So sit there , whats the point of me going there , anyway ? I dnt even know . Im talking craap . Thn when to Brumby's with Anis , Marini , Anisa Amanda , and another girl that i forget what her name is . Thn , went to school like normal . We didnt study at all . I mean i didnt study . Mai and i started helping teacher in ICT room , for syahbandar's fourian number . Thn , until recess . When recess with my beloved bestfriends , Suraya Hani and Effy :) Thn after that , Suraya was gonna help me for more things cause she dont want to get inside the freaking class . So , Suraya and i went to bilik guru , foyer A and everywhere to find teacher . But we didnt see her . So , one of the teacher say that the teacher we were looking for is in Bilik Guru 2 . I was like what kind of place is that ? I never heard of it . Suraya show me and we went inside . We talk talk crap while doing the craps . Haha , thn Iman and N.Natasha came in after we did half ot them . They were ditching some classes too . And help us . Iman did . N.Natasha was trying to cheer herself up and she goes insane . She was talking to herself and go around at the chair . Like some lunatic person . Haha , tht cracks us all up . Thn , they went other place . So , we were finish and send it to teacher . Tomorrow , im going to gve the numbers away , i thnk . Not sure , yet . Ditching classes is fun . Right , peeps ? Haha , thats it . HastalaVista , baybeh .

ANIS SOFHEA WIDURI AZMI , baybeh <3

2009-02-08T21:26:00.000-08:00

Oh , there will be a lot of things that i can talk about her . All the nicest things and the naughty things she does all the time . Haha , she cracks me up , like a lot of times ! So , ths girl , i know her since i am standard 6 and she was standard 5 . Yeah , she is my junior . But who cares ? She is a lot mature thn i am . Haha , seriously -.-' I rarely see her at school . We take the same transport . But when i see her , i feel like screaming . She is so adorable and very pretty . Unique , i suppose . Haha :D And she is my petsister . We share a lot of things together . And she just wore braces yesterday morning . Well , thats what she told me . Heh (: And and , she make jokes . I love her laugh and when she laugh , i will laugh too . I dont even know why . And she is hornay sometimes . Like most of the times . Dang it , i envy her . Guys will be lucky to have her . She is pretty inside and out . Rarely see , huh ? Love you , sayaaang ! <3

A day at hospital :(

2009-02-08T06:46:00.000-08:00

So , it had been 4 days now , my younger sister is still in the hospital . My dad , my sister and i went there around 11 something . Around 11.15 after sending my second sister to the hospital , my dad sent me to Parade cause i want to buy some books and somethings . Dang it , its hard to find the books . I read the second book of Private called Invitation Only and i wanted to read the first one , cll Private and the others , of course . I have to wait til tht person clls me and tell me when they arrive . So then , went back to hospital . Poor her :( I miss her in the house . We stayed there until 5 something (: Then then , i watch tv and do some craps . Now , im blogging and chatting with Marini , Syafirul , Khalil and Anis . Okay , update later . Byebye , i miss school a lot ! :'(

Xoxo , Syamim

Its not like im doing anything

2009-02-07T06:30:00.000-08:00

Okay , today is Saturday , right ? I woke up like 11 something cause i was exhausted . Thn , i take care on my youngest sister , Nurul Zayani at hospital cause my mum need to take care of somethings . Pityy her , she look so cute and so tired . So , i read her some bedtime stories to make her sleep . I stayed there until 3 something . While then , i read Invitation book by Kate Brian . Its nice , i like it . And im buying more ! Ngahaha but then , i have to go home cause i have tuition at 6 til 7 . Then , i went to see her again until 8 something . And now , im blogging and i have nothing to say -.-' Bye , Loves <3

Xoxo , Syamim

The waiting

2009-02-05T18:31:00.000-08:00

Umm , today was like so - okay . Around 8 something , i went to school for the Syahbandar practise . Thn , meet N.Natasha at the bus stop there and we walk to Canteen . But thn , everyone was already walking . We walk slowly while talking tht teacher saw us and say faster , faster ! Haha , dang , it was funny . If you were there lah . Saw marini and anis . Hug them and walk to the line . Teacher gave numbers to us . So , we are in seperate group or something . But me and anis are in the same line . Anis was funny , haha love her ! Thn , we run 3 rounds of the whole field , like 3 km or something . Thats what they say . The teachers just want us to knw how long is the Fourian track . It will be on Valentine's Day on 14 Feb . Thn , we were marching and stuff . I went back with N.Natasha , Marini and Anis . We ate at Brumby's . Isaac dnt knw the name and he keep clling Brombays , haha :D Thn marini and anis ate there . I dnt have money -.-' So , went home with anis and marini . N.Natasha went the other way . So , the juniors sent me home . How sweet of them (: Okay , thn sleep for a while . But then , suraya cll and told me to watch 'The Adventures of Sharkboy and Lavagirl' . I jump or my bed and go down . Haha , i almost fall . I never watch tht movie before but when Suraya told me , tht movie already started like a quarter of time . Blerghh , nvm . It will come out again . Thn went to school . No one come ! I mean , only me and suraya came to school in our little gang . Effy , N.Natasha , F.Natasha didnt come . Effy was sick . Pityy you , get well , babe ! But N.Natsha ? No idea why . And F.Natsha either . So , study was like normal . BI time , we went to watch Phantom of the Opera , for three days in a row . Long storyy ! It was okay . But they sing a lot ! Like damn a lot , zzzz -.-' But one of the songs had stuck inside my head cause they sang it so many times . Haha , oh well , i kinda like it . They when rehat , me and suraya only . It felt weird . Haha , umm , thts all (: Byebye

Xoxo , Syamim ;)

School starts

2009-02-02T06:09:00.000-08:00

So , today i went to school . Just like normal , hug some friends cause it had been a week since we saw each other . School holidays had been boring , i just hangout with my friends and that just it . It was nothing . And today , studies were like normal . I didnt finish up some homework . I was lazy , haha (: Thats practically my ownself . I have nothing to talk about cause it was just normal . I got to go . So , see you , bye <3

Xoxo , Syamim :)

Birthday girl (:

2009-02-02T05:43:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday , Min <3

Holy crap , yesterday was the bomb , man ! It was like everyone were there . It was Min's birthday . I love you , babe ! The decided to hangout at Pyramid . So , me , Inas , Inez , Mooz , Yasmin , Julia , Yaya , Sue , Naz , Hilal and his other two friends were there . There were 12 people . Cool , rght ? Haha , i know :) I went to mooz's house around 10.30+ cause she asked me too . Then , hang around her house . It took her so long just to get ready . It was hilarious , haha :D And then around 12 , we walk to inez's house cause her dad is going to send us to pyramid . So , then around 12.30 , we came out from the house cause she is sending her mum to work first . We arrived at pyramid almost 1.30 . Meet inas , naz , suraya , hilal and his other two friends infront of starbucks . We waited for Min to come . And when she arrived , we hug hug her and wish her happy birthday . Haha , im telling all the details ! ;P Then , we went to buy tickets to watch movie and decided to watch Bride Wars . I had watch it before . So yeah , wtv . Then hangout there until 7 something . Inas went home with me . We talk talk and talk while waiting for my dad . So yeah , it was a wondeful day . I really had a blast . Thats all . Happy Birthday !

Xoxo , Syamim :)

Dont be a bitch, sweetie (:

2009-02-02T05:15:00.001-08:00

Hmm , where should i start ? Hey , my name is Nurul Syamim bt Azminuddin . Call me Syamim , please ? Im turning 14 on 19 March . Im from Smk 4 and i have lots of people that i love in there . I had been blogging before . Then , i've deleted it cause i was bored of doing it everyday . Now , i had time for it . Im sure 2009 will be fun . I am happy with the way my life is right now . I trust no one and im the sign of betrayal . Cause everyone i trust , break my heart :S I know im not perfect and i dont care who hates me cause i've done nothing wrong to them . If you are not a coward , be glad to say it face to face , alrght ? I will be happy to listen or not listen to people problems and i hate no one . Cause to me , hating people is sso kiddy like . I love watching movies . I have no favourite colour , food or drinks cause it changes everyday . I have regret with somethings that i have done tht i shouldnt have done . Im willing to change to be a better person . And , im not giving up . People who starts messing with me , you better watch it ! Okay , thts it . I will write soon .

Xoxo , syamim :)

What is that ? Is it really a nightmare ? :O

Hyper ?

True friends ? Pfft

Yeah , thats the exact point

You belong with me (:

Dooom !

Oh crap , you bitch

Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing

Tiring , yet i had a blast (:

Ohmaggodd

I had been used

Oh damn , reality will not leave me alone

Funny , never took you for a quitter :S

Sweetie , life is meant to be this way . I have to go :S

Freaky way

After we broke up , you began to get hotter , is it to make me jealous ? -.-'

Moving on

Its not over , is it ?

Dang , i lost it again

Its a wrong direction , my love

Im tired and freezing cold

Im so stressing out for nothing

Im regretting the desicions i have made , zz

Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs .

I know what you had done , it wont change how i feel

Heart broken

Heyaaww !

You are a disaster to me and everyone else !

I just dont get it

Was it meant to be ?

Meaningless

It had been crazy do :S

Aint life just a joke ?

It was fucking awesomeeeeeee !

I dont give a shit

Off-ing

Am i suppose to be upset ? I mean , should i ?

Life wasnt meant to be easy

It is over

Hmm

19 03 2009 <3

What is your next lie ?

Okay okay , im done with it

How i said it and when i said it , i know i mean it .

Your words brought me to tears .

Dum di dum di dum dum dum di dum

Im not some miss perfect stuckup bitch .

Its freakingly tempting *drools*

Even the worst enemis could be friends back , why cant we be ? -.-'

Indeed it happen just like what i expected

Dont expect me to follow you cause that will never happen !

The truth came out

Baby , happy birthday (: 21 02 2009

Let it be

Let me learn to make my own mistakes

They cracks me up , hahahah :)

Crap a lot make me feel lot better :)

Fourian -.-'

A day with my amazing bestfriends ;)

ANIS SOFHEA WIDURI AZMI , baybeh <3

A day at hospital :(

Its not like im doing anything

The waiting

School starts

Birthday girl (:

Dont be a bitch, sweetie (:

Its freakingly tempting drools